I feel like a jerk.

I am 100 percent sure Zucker wasn't right for me. So wouldn't I just be humoring him if I stayed in a loveless relationship? Under this assumption, I preformed a necessary act to confirm this dislike. Under the typical mind set of the teenager ( and my mom, who thinks if any guy looks at me I should be praising the lord.), I have committed treason. I have left someone nice, caring, good, and kind. Someone who really liked me. But should it not be enough I did not duplicate his endeavor? I realized I was not satisfied. Shouldn't that be enough? Then why do I still feel this guilt? Like I've hurt someone I never wanted to hurt. IDK. I know I was right...but it still hurt.

Hello? Is anyone home???

No one ever comments. I feel like I'm talking to myself. Who knows... maybe I am.

YEAH FOR GRADUATION! I won an award, but a crappy one. Some kids got money...I got a stupid plaque. What is a plaque good for? Hitting people?? It was super hot in the gym. My dress kept sticking to my legs. Other people looked pretty, I looked shitty.

The principle talked about some of his favorite students. This included Jenny, Jenny, Jenny, and let's not forget: Jenny. He also mentioned who he believed to be the best artist in the school, who was obviously ( with my extreme dose of luck ) not me. Not to say the girl who did win isn't phenomenal...I just would've liked a little cred. I guess winning a Riversharks contest, and raising 1,000 dollars for the CCFA mean nothing.

Oh well. Just another stepping stone on the path of life. Misty and Strawberrie: I desperately need a girls day. I just do.

GRADUATION!

Tonight is the eighth grade graduation. I'm hoping they keep it fairly short. I am also hoping it is not a gubzillion degrees in the gym. But with my luck, it will be a gubzillion-and-two degrees. Grrrr.

I have asked multiple people their opinion about me and Zucky. The key is I know he isn't right for me. We just don't click. I can see he really likes me, I just don't like him back. He needs someone less out going than me. I need someone bold, who always has an opinion. He is really nice, and has done nothing wrong. I don't know. I don't want to break up with him on the last day of school... that's just mean.

I really want to avoid his parents tonight. They are really into me and Zucky being together. That would really turn on the guilt.

I have to go now. Talk to yall when I'm a graduate!